Grief is the Gateway
Nobody wants to hear there are gifts in grief, especially when it’s the loss of your mom.
But it’s true…
Today is the 4th anniversary of that heart-breaking day. When I think back to it, I can see the little details so clearly. We knew she was dying, it was just so sudden.
There was so much pain…
I didn’t get to be there to say goodbye in person.
And then there were such sweet blessings…
My sisters and I happened to all be home that weekend and we got to be the ones to care for her in her final days. We didn’t realize what was coming, but He knew. That to me was such a gift.
There was a dark period of grieving of course, and learning to navigate a new normal without my mom. It’s hard to describe the emptiness left from losing someone so significant. I felt like a part of me died too. I didn’t know how to pull myself up out of mourning.
But God… I thought losing her broke me. Now I see how God used it to break something new OPEN in me.
You wouldn’t have noticed but at the time, I was suffering. I was anxious and sad; I couldn’t sleep, had panic attacks, felt short-tempered a lot and alone.
Hitting rock bottom is usually when we stop and look UP. So I did. And 4 years later I know without a doubt this was when God showed himself to me as the unconditionally loving, patient, all-knowing father he is.
He took my pain and used it for purpose.
Six months after losing my mom…
We found out we were pregnant with our third baby and she’s brought more joy to our family than we could ever imagine. I changed as a mom because I came to understand myself first as a daughter.
I discovered a wellness company that offered holistic approaches to healing anxiety, depression and the panic attacks that had me in a vice. These solutions helped me SO much I joined the company and have been helping other women for the past 3 years!
I made new friends with women around the country because of my business and can’t imagine them not being a part of my life.
I’m here talking to YOU about how grief isn’t the end but a gateway to something unbelievably beautiful and new that God will do through you.
I say all this to give you HOPE that there is breakthrough coming!
There is light ready to shine into your darkness.
If you’re going through a loss or still grieving one let this encourage you:
Don’t push the pain away.
Feel it. Sit with it.
Journal.
Get support from trusted friends or mentors.
Prioritize your mental wellness. Anxiety and depression have negative impacts on us physically if you don’t address it. There are healthy options available that don’t require pharmaceuticals. Let’s connect if this is something you need.
Talk to God about it and don’t let the pain of grief stop you. He is waiting with open arms to love you, heal you, and bring breakthrough to your broken heart.
